One morning where sunlight came inside across those window and all I saw was buildings and traffics. Then to a huge hall that crowded by people who were in and out elevators. Maybe they were in hurry or just need to look for anything they possibly could did. I kept walking on my black kitten heels to pair with my gray blazer over white dress.
One saturday afternoon at a favorite coffee shop in downtown, and people were queueing asking the barista to make their favorite beverages. I asked for a cup of red velvet latte with a very cute latte art on it. Then I walked upstairs looked for empty seat. It was a coffee machine in front of me and that was the very first time I completely knew how to brew coffee.
One time I was looking to those skyscrapers from a rooftop in the heart of this city, waiting for sunset, and sipping a cup of chamomile tea. It was a little cloudy, not quite windy, and several voices were coming from girls that were preparing for a birthday of a friend of them. They were laughing and retouching their make up. I turned my eyes to the other side, at a corner were some of lovebirds that glancing at each other eyes with magnificent smiles.
One other afternoon, through the traffic jams at the flyover in a tiny Parisian district, electro pop playlist played on car's audio, while outside was a very great scenery. I saw a silhouette of a mountain standing upright behind blue sky, and the sunlighted just touch my green trumpet sleeves top made an interesting shades. Then sky changed colors and city lights sparkled beautifully, Japanese cuisine, and a little bit shopping before the dreams end.
The moments that bringing up a feeling of blessing to figure out another side of myself deeply, because there are still many hidden unique colors inside those palettes.
love,
clara
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May 15, 2016
Jul 14, 2015
Fate which is exist.
I ask my self infrequently, am I happy? And even I think a little bit hard to interpret the exact meaning of being happy. After those unhappy years, and pretended that I was okay with things, well even I know that wasn't what I literally want, but there was always something to push me get close to. If I could reborn even I can't choose who am I, but I would take different choices.
Well, it is not exactly that I mean if I am not happy at all. I am happy, yes sure, like happy of having such incredible friends, but the thought of 'this is not the life I want, the life I hope for, and the life that interpret who I am' is always comes in sudden. Like there is a torture in their smile.
The boundary between my dream and reality is thin enough, but it always exist. I can't break that boundary, yet. And I don't know, don't know what should I do then. It's like I want to buy an ice cream cone, I have enough money, but there's always something to make me away.
And now I am tired, to struggle for another dreams, and makes another hope.
Perhaps this is what people called FATE. The thing that influence all people's life, and they can't change it. Even though I really don't believe that, because I think the one who choose to be who you are is only that person. But now, it's different. And I start to believe there is a fate that hidden in someone life, whether it breaks your dreams right now or years later. I just can't believe that years behind and later is a kind of disaster, the life that I don't want to live for, but I have to.
xoxo,
clara
Well, it is not exactly that I mean if I am not happy at all. I am happy, yes sure, like happy of having such incredible friends, but the thought of 'this is not the life I want, the life I hope for, and the life that interpret who I am' is always comes in sudden. Like there is a torture in their smile.
The boundary between my dream and reality is thin enough, but it always exist. I can't break that boundary, yet. And I don't know, don't know what should I do then. It's like I want to buy an ice cream cone, I have enough money, but there's always something to make me away.
And now I am tired, to struggle for another dreams, and makes another hope.
Perhaps this is what people called FATE. The thing that influence all people's life, and they can't change it. Even though I really don't believe that, because I think the one who choose to be who you are is only that person. But now, it's different. And I start to believe there is a fate that hidden in someone life, whether it breaks your dreams right now or years later. I just can't believe that years behind and later is a kind of disaster, the life that I don't want to live for, but I have to.
xoxo,
clara
Jun 20, 2015
Simple meaningful lesson.
Many of people confuse about their darkness past that always come to ruin the future. Sometimes I feel that. When the memories back, and I just being vulnerable, then I ask my self that do I completely forgive? But the problem is how can I forgive if I can forget. This one really a kind of complicated simple things.
A friend of mine taught me to forgive, and to understand people's imperfect character. Nobody is perfect. Nobody. All imperfect. And all you need is to be patient. If can't do that, you're an abnormal person. Perhaps those words made me better right now. I try to develop my self to become a person who utilize the gift. I still can breath and see the world's beauty. And everything is more than enough rather than being a person who can hardly forgive people.
love,
clara
A friend of mine taught me to forgive, and to understand people's imperfect character. Nobody is perfect. Nobody. All imperfect. And all you need is to be patient. If can't do that, you're an abnormal person. Perhaps those words made me better right now. I try to develop my self to become a person who utilize the gift. I still can breath and see the world's beauty. And everything is more than enough rather than being a person who can hardly forgive people.
love,
clara
May 4, 2015
Transparency.
I see the sun. The light is just too bright. I look closer then find something behind the light.
The emptiness of happiness. Far from the expectation, that the light is always be the magic of the darkness.
That space is covered by the joy which reflected by the saint eyes and beautiful smile on an ordinary face of human. There shall be a huge boundary of feelings, but the greater human personality the more it covered.
And that light is the best one that I feel to the bones and flow in my blood.
That light is the guidance of my life about facing the future and fight the fear.
That light is an inspiration of loving. Loving the people who dying of hopes.
xoxo,
clara
The emptiness of happiness. Far from the expectation, that the light is always be the magic of the darkness.
That space is covered by the joy which reflected by the saint eyes and beautiful smile on an ordinary face of human. There shall be a huge boundary of feelings, but the greater human personality the more it covered.
And that light is the best one that I feel to the bones and flow in my blood.
That light is the guidance of my life about facing the future and fight the fear.
That light is an inspiration of loving. Loving the people who dying of hopes.
xoxo,
clara
Mar 24, 2015
The Heart.
It is about the heart that is very preferential.
The heart that can makes the eyes reflect the sincerity.
The heart that has the saint spirit for sharing the favor to others continuously.
The heart that can afford to answer meanness with forgiveness.
The heart that has the calmness to always speak good.
The heart that can embrace the orphan.
There are moments that comes to realize me that I am too good for people,
but then I remembered that the heart inside my self is not that kind of heart.
The heart that owned by somebody who is influential.
xoxo,
clara
Jan 17, 2015
Means of boy in my eyes.
I met a boy. He is so famous now. He had a years relationship with a girl. But then it was just over. When he started again, this girl is kind of bitter one. She left him for building up her happy new relationship. After everything he did for her, she just walk away. He was in suffer, but God reply everything with amazing plans for his days after.
I met a boy. He had a crush on a girl who left him then. He had tried several times to build a new relationship but nothing worked, he had already known. He never said it but I believed that inside his laugh, he believed in faith that she will be back. And she did. Now he smile in happiness, no pain anymore.
I met a boy. He texted to many girls. He flirted to anyone who dazzle his eyes. But he only had one girl to share his love wholeheartedly. He could do anything to make her happy. He kept visiting her even in his rushing. He really loves her, I see on his eyes when he tell a story about her.
I met a boy. He has a girlfriend. He do love her in a value that much more than others human can do. He flirted to some other girls, sometimes. But he knew that nothing to deal with them. And he still loves his girl for past, present, and until death.
I met a boy. He was a kind of people who have great principles for his life. He wanted a serious relationship since the first time he dated a girl. He treated his girl in a way that mostly girl wish for. But she repeated what was wrong. And he just smiled every time people ask. I knew that deep inside his soul is broken, but he pretend to tell. He hided the pain so that nobody knows how hard he tried to sleep all night.
I met a boy. He was a handsome guy with polite smile. He spokes politely. He cares much to his friends. He loves a girl, only she and she. No others. Never cheating. No flirting. A kind of faithful person that everybody wish to have for spending the rest of their live. He looked after she even in miles away. I didn't know exactly her feeling to him but I thought she was a person who did not realize with this kind of blessing that God sent her. Every time he bowed his head, close his eyes, and smile, I know that he bear the pain.
I met a boy. He had a high intelligence, great point of view, and amazing advisor. People around were so proud to have him as a friend. Proud because they could easily interact with one of amazing people in this world. He was like a google who could answer almost every questions. Well, actually not many people knew about his love life. But lucky me, I knew his present story. He had a crush with his childhood mate. At first it was sound very sweet, when you had a crush with someone you grown up with. And it came a day when everything revealed. As I believe that the truth won't hide for forever. That girl, who he had a crush with, was lied. Lie about her feeling. Lie about her acts to him. Lie about the reasons why she cares to him. And I knew that he hurts and had to suffers in this kind of pain. One lesson that I learned is that the pain will come from anybody, no matter who they are.
I met a boy. He was a good one. The one who good at many subjects. The one that focused to build up his future. The one that raised up to be a polite and intelligent man. He had a relationship with a girl. The relationship that he exactly knew nothing deeper. The relationship that scare him. Perhaps he just didn't know what to do. He didn't know how to fix what should have been fixed in past. And he just letting everything continues to happen. And years ahead, is only God knows.
I met a boy. He had a dark past. He changed him self then to somebody new. The one that was a reflection of suffering. He struggled hard these years built up his amazing future. And all of his works finally come to great things. I predicts that years ahead, the sun will shine so brightly on him, brighten his past, and his ready to take his girl in his past back to his side.
I met a boy. He loves people. He gave his hug to the orphans. He did favour to people more than they expected to get. He was a light through people darkness. Put a fire into millions toneless dreams. Changed the thought of the reasons why human born. I saw the saint soul through his eyes. And the war that he fight for human peace in his around. No flirt to girl, because flirt to empty soul is more fascinate him. No love relationship, because the relationship with God is more precious.
xoxo,
clara
I met a boy. He had a crush on a girl who left him then. He had tried several times to build a new relationship but nothing worked, he had already known. He never said it but I believed that inside his laugh, he believed in faith that she will be back. And she did. Now he smile in happiness, no pain anymore.
I met a boy. He texted to many girls. He flirted to anyone who dazzle his eyes. But he only had one girl to share his love wholeheartedly. He could do anything to make her happy. He kept visiting her even in his rushing. He really loves her, I see on his eyes when he tell a story about her.
I met a boy. He has a girlfriend. He do love her in a value that much more than others human can do. He flirted to some other girls, sometimes. But he knew that nothing to deal with them. And he still loves his girl for past, present, and until death.
I met a boy. He was a kind of people who have great principles for his life. He wanted a serious relationship since the first time he dated a girl. He treated his girl in a way that mostly girl wish for. But she repeated what was wrong. And he just smiled every time people ask. I knew that deep inside his soul is broken, but he pretend to tell. He hided the pain so that nobody knows how hard he tried to sleep all night.
I met a boy. He was a handsome guy with polite smile. He spokes politely. He cares much to his friends. He loves a girl, only she and she. No others. Never cheating. No flirting. A kind of faithful person that everybody wish to have for spending the rest of their live. He looked after she even in miles away. I didn't know exactly her feeling to him but I thought she was a person who did not realize with this kind of blessing that God sent her. Every time he bowed his head, close his eyes, and smile, I know that he bear the pain.
I met a boy. He had a high intelligence, great point of view, and amazing advisor. People around were so proud to have him as a friend. Proud because they could easily interact with one of amazing people in this world. He was like a google who could answer almost every questions. Well, actually not many people knew about his love life. But lucky me, I knew his present story. He had a crush with his childhood mate. At first it was sound very sweet, when you had a crush with someone you grown up with. And it came a day when everything revealed. As I believe that the truth won't hide for forever. That girl, who he had a crush with, was lied. Lie about her feeling. Lie about her acts to him. Lie about the reasons why she cares to him. And I knew that he hurts and had to suffers in this kind of pain. One lesson that I learned is that the pain will come from anybody, no matter who they are.
I met a boy. He was a good one. The one who good at many subjects. The one that focused to build up his future. The one that raised up to be a polite and intelligent man. He had a relationship with a girl. The relationship that he exactly knew nothing deeper. The relationship that scare him. Perhaps he just didn't know what to do. He didn't know how to fix what should have been fixed in past. And he just letting everything continues to happen. And years ahead, is only God knows.
I met a boy. He had a dark past. He changed him self then to somebody new. The one that was a reflection of suffering. He struggled hard these years built up his amazing future. And all of his works finally come to great things. I predicts that years ahead, the sun will shine so brightly on him, brighten his past, and his ready to take his girl in his past back to his side.
I met a boy. He loves people. He gave his hug to the orphans. He did favour to people more than they expected to get. He was a light through people darkness. Put a fire into millions toneless dreams. Changed the thought of the reasons why human born. I saw the saint soul through his eyes. And the war that he fight for human peace in his around. No flirt to girl, because flirt to empty soul is more fascinate him. No love relationship, because the relationship with God is more precious.
xoxo,
clara
Dec 6, 2014
Dreams.
Dreams. There must be hundreds, thousands, even millions kind of dreams.
One is the dream that will never comes into reality. Because it stay serenely inside the heart for long time, even no one know when it ends. That dream lives inside the soul forever and it is like a little happiness which will always blossom in sadness. They knew that it will always be only a dream, but they don't want to forget, they want to keep it, no matter what's going on. Because several parts of their life, still alive because of that dream.
That dream is a dream that will stay strongest, even hurt the deepest, but also the purest.
xoxo,
clara
Oct 12, 2014
The Universal Truth.
A best friend of mine, Teddy, told me about an incredible quote:
There is a universal truth we all have to face, whether we want to or not.
But just because we're leaving, and that hurts,
there's some people who are so much a part of us,
they'll be with us no matter what.
They are our solid ground. Our North Star.
And the small clear voices in our hearts that will be with us... Always...
love,
clara
There is a universal truth we all have to face, whether we want to or not.
But just because we're leaving, and that hurts,
there's some people who are so much a part of us,
they'll be with us no matter what.
They are our solid ground. Our North Star.
And the small clear voices in our hearts that will be with us... Always...
love,
clara
Oct 7, 2014
Beyond limitation.
At least there is a border in life. Border which separates the dream from reality. Dreaming a thing that hardly to reach or even never happen perhaps is the love that last the longest, hurts the deepest, but it feels the strongest. The feeling really could survive for so long, the time goes, the happiness it looks, the pain seems. But to stop dreaming for more even deeper, is beyond the human limitation. Perhaps the universe arrange something hurts but beautiful instead.
love,
clara
Aug 30, 2014
A couple of eyes.
I was waiting the sun to set, sitting on one of thousand chairs in front of a huge stage with so many light on it sides. The sky was getting red and slowly disappearing. Then I turned my head up, stared the stars sparkling and a beautiful curve stayed near them. Under the moonlight, the evening breeze, people singing, a glimpse of someone's eyes glanced at me. I noticed that. The eyes were straight to my eyes in the middle of crowded, thousands people were there. Seemed that it means words to spoke up. My heart noticed something, touched by that beautiful gaze. The words could be "Do not stop praying, God hear every tear of you. And never tired to reach your dream". I turned my eyes back to that point and it vanished.
xoxo,
clara.
May 23, 2014
Vulnerable is past
Maybe now I am wake up after these devastating months. I trapped in the confusion about what life should be and how to be happy. Yes, be happy. I was sad, couldn't feel happy, loose my weight, and totally vulnerable. There were so much pressure, fact that hard to deal with, and I don't know everything just so absurd.
Alright, perhaps this paragraph may be the official answer for people who judge me not serious with my study. This semester I only take several credits because I've already taken so many in time behind. So this is what I can do, take all the only possible credits. One of them is a big design project, maybe it's true that I am not totally focus on, but there is a significant changes on my career in fashion industry, I reach the point which I never get on before. So it's not a problem, because when we face the different kind of work, we need to choose which one have to focus and which should come-off second best. Hard decision, but I should take it.
I did googling for finding the way to be happy, the reason to find out my happiness. And most of them tell that you need struggle hard for doing several thing to reach that happiness, such as start positive thinking, surrounded by good people, and be grateful.
I talked to some amazing people, they totally support me, give the very motivating advices. They said that I deserve to be happy more that what I feel right now, my future shall be brighter if I brave to fight for it. And living the life as today the last day, but live it by doing the productive things. Oh it such a very motivational quote. Some other told to thank God for everything I got, and sincere.
Now, I feel better, very very better from months behind. I feel blessed, shining, and happier. I enjoy my life, yes I should, and I'll be. I pray a prayer from years back and still keep believing in faith, finally God show the answer.
And after all I did, I realize that HAPPINESS NOT COME TOWARD YOU, BUT YOU HAVE TO FIND IT
Alright, perhaps this paragraph may be the official answer for people who judge me not serious with my study. This semester I only take several credits because I've already taken so many in time behind. So this is what I can do, take all the only possible credits. One of them is a big design project, maybe it's true that I am not totally focus on, but there is a significant changes on my career in fashion industry, I reach the point which I never get on before. So it's not a problem, because when we face the different kind of work, we need to choose which one have to focus and which should come-off second best. Hard decision, but I should take it.
I did googling for finding the way to be happy, the reason to find out my happiness. And most of them tell that you need struggle hard for doing several thing to reach that happiness, such as start positive thinking, surrounded by good people, and be grateful.
I talked to some amazing people, they totally support me, give the very motivating advices. They said that I deserve to be happy more that what I feel right now, my future shall be brighter if I brave to fight for it. And living the life as today the last day, but live it by doing the productive things. Oh it such a very motivational quote. Some other told to thank God for everything I got, and sincere.
Now, I feel better, very very better from months behind. I feel blessed, shining, and happier. I enjoy my life, yes I should, and I'll be. I pray a prayer from years back and still keep believing in faith, finally God show the answer.
And after all I did, I realize that HAPPINESS NOT COME TOWARD YOU, BUT YOU HAVE TO FIND IT
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